Too little or Too much control?

But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.

1 Corinthians 9:27 ESV

Today in church this verse was part of the sermon. We started a new series called Ekklesia. Ekklesia is the word used in the New Testament for 'church'. And we talked about what we thought about church and what church means. When the preacher used this verse in his sermon it had caught my attention. Something about the words really struck a chord with me. He had used a different version but using my loverly Android phone, I quickly looked at other versions..

I liked how the Message bible had written it:

I’m staying alert and in top condition. I’m not going to get caught napping, telling everyone else all about it and then missing out myself.

Also how the American Standard Version says it:

but I buffet my body, and bring it into bondage: lest by any means, after that I have preached to others, I myself should be rejected.

Out of the three versions I have listed I think that I liked the Message the most. In my eyes it hits the nail right on the head. After reading that verse from the message I immedalitely began thinking about how sometimes in my life I've done that, and not even sometimes. Daily. People, my co-workers know that I go to church, I've had talks with people about God and salvation and what it means to me but that is all I do about it. I don't live it out completely. I "nap" constantly, my relationship with Jesus is never the only thing on my mind, I think about WAY too much other stuff and not enough about Jesus. Personal time with talking to Him, or spending time in his Word was just an act, or not even there at all.

Talking the talk isn't as spectacular without walking the walk. I need to change. Call it one of my 'resolutions', but I really don't want to call it that, but I have realized that I have come to a point in my life where I realized that I am doing the exact opposite of the verse. I don't control myself, or maybe I over control myself with the things of this world and my longings rather then those of God.

I'm sorry if when you're reading this it seems like I'm jumping from place to place and not making any sense. I'm just writing down what been going on in my head all day..and hey its my blog I can do and write however i want. :)